monochrome

Her first 100th

2009-01-16T22:39:00.003+08:00

It's granny's first 100th day ever since she left us. I hope she's living a better life up there. Granny, it has been hard on you.

Family and I are gonna go to Granny's house tomorrow in the morning for prayers and then after that we will be heading down to Granny's "new house" at Chua Chu Kang.

I miss you, Granny.

Once and for all

2009-01-13T02:32:00.001+08:00

This is the last time. the last time blogging about her.

Nth about you is gonna affect me again.

2009-01-12T18:44:00.001+08:00

I love sam wws :D

Transformaaaa

2009-01-12T18:30:00.002+08:00

CHANGES in SAM and CARA.

FIRST photo taken together even before we got together in Sept 2007.

In Aug 2008. Almost changing...

Photos taken in Dec 2009. Changed.

Totally different within one day after the previous photo taken.

LOL! :D

spot the differences for 2007 2008 and 2009's cara.

2009-01-12T18:19:00.003+08:00

spot the differences for 2007 2008 and 2009's cara.

Cara in 2007.

Cara in 2008.

Cara in 2009.

WEEEE.... :D

2008-12-21T12:38:00.001+08:00

Unbeautiful - Lesley Roy

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether

2008-12-20T00:40:00.001+08:00

M'sia trip faster come! I miss my baby!

:) i wanna be with her forever. COME BACK BABY!
Cara misses you!

生日快乐妈妈

2008-12-19T22:47:00.004+08:00

生日快乐妈妈

2008-12-19T22:46:00.001+08:00

i miss her .

2008-12-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

i love you like i've always do.

oh no.

i love you more every single day. and just only you.

2008-12-19T15:24:00.002+08:00

someone to wait for me to chat with her/him
someone to take care of me when im sick
someone to talk to me whenever im stressed
someone to love me wholeheartedly
someone who only flirts with me
someone who have only me in the heart

someone who will only have me.
I'm not pretty nor handsome nor cool
but i think im nt that bad.
I'm selfish. i dont like to share my love

I wishes someone to miss me like how i miss sam.

all i wanted for christmas. it's priceless.

2008-12-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

treasure.

2008-12-19T13:55:00.003+08:00

a house, with a small pool where we can have bbq every saturday.
a loving gf.

tts all i need. i need all of your love, and i want you to give them all to me. and only me.

it's not hard. it's not easy

2008-12-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

Read the face. thats how i feel the whole of last night.

Once again i have to emphasize. I hate ppl who lie and brk promises. omg.

i hate it.

Ohwell, if you found someone better. ok.

i miss you.

2008-12-02T23:51:00.005+08:00

"It's been the longest winter without you. I didnt know who to turn to..."

I was listening to this song on the bus, and there comes the memories with my grandmother again. New year is coming, I spend every single new year with her. and i mean it, EVERY SINGLE new year.

This is gonna be the first time i'm gonna spend my new year without seeing her, greeting her, hearing her high pitch-ed voice, hearing her laughter and getting her blessing, her ang bao, and feel the warmth of her hand.

What is it gonna be like? A new year without her. Will everyone still gather together and go 拜年 together?

Everyyear, without fail, we rent a bus, so that the whole family could go praying (ancestors)together. But this year, we are going to pray our respect to her.

Flashes and thoughts of my ah ma's last look. the whole process. When I received the call, to say that grandma passed away, on the way to her house, to see her for the last last time, the process of praying our last respect to her body, on the way to cousin house to get her photo, the time where i just stood beside her body; praying and chanting, hoping for ah ma to get a better after-life.

I still remember when I was in primary 6, I drew her a card on her birthday. she was so happy. And the day when my aunties and uncles were cleaning the closet, i saw the card.
immediately, tears rolled down my cheeks. it's a drawing of me and her, i can still remember clearly, i colored the colour of the face wrongly and i liquid the whole face white. It was so funny and embarassing when i gave her the card.

I remembered she said," Care-la, Kiang lorh."

...means, cara is smart or in another sense good girl...

Tears .

2008-11-17T12:45:00.003+08:00

Only in AmericaOnly in Texas

Only in India

Only in Hawaii

Only in China

The only situation you will say FUCK.

Cloud formation

Edge of hurricane

2008-11-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

Hello Hello Hello! went to catch HSM3 todae! ;D omg i love bryan. love his clothes, his pants, his hats and his shoes. there's new characters too! rocket man and that fake british sharpay. Like totally. god. LOL!

i gave the show a rating of 3.5/5 :) i stil love 4bia. hahaha! Omg, i love that song! but i don't know whats the title. it goes something like ".... last dance " hahaha! OK nvm, i will go find out from my friends.

the weird feeling.

2008-11-03T02:10:00.004+08:00

HELLO PPLE! I JUST LOST MY PHONE. OMG SHIT right. hahaha. anw, i've got a new phone and a new contact number. 8113214* , ask me for the last number ;) because I want your number too! Anyway, I made the above picture. FOR FUN. because my bestfriends keep teasing me, saying i look like that FAT rhino from the movie "BOLT". shit. am I that fat? LOL!

PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT FAT OK! ;D

MY NEW PHONE! SAMSUNG SOUL SGH-U900

Features	Messaging	SMS, EMS, MMS, Email
	Browser	WAP 2.0/xHTML, HTML, RSS feeds
	Games	Yes + downloadable, order now
	Colors	Silver, Pink
	Camera	5 MP, 2560х1920 pixels, autofocus, image stabiliser, video(QVGA), flash
		- Java MIDP 2.0 - MP3/AAC/eACC+/WMA player - FM radio with RDS - T9 - Picture editing - Organizer - Built-in handsfree

I bought the phone with my own pocket $ or you can say hard earned money. please say that it's nice. :D HAHAHAA. anyway, the day when i lost my phone, I was damn pathetic and blur. i didnt realise that i have lost my phone until the time when i was about to go to bed and set alarm for the next morning. which is around 3 hours later. DUMB RIGHT. i know. I thought it was in my bag all the while so i didnt really bother to check it. Tuesday i was damn tired and damn sleepy due to schoolwork and training, so i didnt really care much, i just called baby saying that i have lsot my phone and went to slp. HAHAHA. NORMALLY I WILL CRY AND WHINE AND HIT THE SOFA. but surprisingly i didnt this time. maybe because it's time to change a new phone too. BECAUSE MY FREAKING SONY ERICSSON PHONE'S BUTTON IS DROPPING?! yesh. the button is DROPPING and FALLING. omg. what a shitty phone isnt it.

maybe its a blessing in disguise. wheew...

czmp xoxo you. hahahahhahaahha.

2008-10-29T14:16:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOST MY PHONE :(

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

2008-10-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

this is crazy. i feel different. i feel everything is different. it all feels so strange, unfamiliar. it feels like everyone is lying to me. everyone is keeping something from me. oh gawd. i hate this feeling.

dont lie, never lie to Cara.

2008-10-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

Mum! be strong. I will be here, Edwin and Edmund will be here too.
We love you.

2008-10-14T23:35:00.005+08:00

I've got that I'm not okay feeling ever since this morning when they carried my grandmother into the lorry. I just dont feel like doing anything else. School, lectures, training. I feel like taking a brk for awhile. My mum cried like mad pls. and I feel like spending some time with her. I need some comfort. I am really very upset right at this moment. Oh gawd. Save me.

ballz says: i dont understand why god just want to takeaway people so fast
ballz says: and us, who knows those being taken away. can only cry like mad.

Grandma.
Thanks for giving birth to my mother.
Thanks for the gd food that you've cooked.
Thanks for the love, concern, the amount of fun and joy you have brought into my life.
Thanks for fighting so hard against all negatives.
Thanks for staying strong.
Thanks for your strong determination.
Thanks for everything, every single memory

I'll miss you.
Rest in Peace.
19 June 1928 - 10 October 2008

For the Last Time

2008-10-14T16:52:00.003+08:00

i'll miss you

2008-10-12T01:58:00.003+08:00

My granny passed away just yesterday afternoon (1335hr)
She's the strongest woman i've ever seen. She has been struggling and fighting with the stomach cancer which causes her death. After we've stop feeding her for 3 weeks 5 days, she finally passed away peacefully on 11 Oct 2008.

阿嫫，至今您已回上天做仙，也应该轮到您享清福了。请您不要为我们而操心，我们会好好照顾自己的身子。
你在天之灵，一定要保护您的子孙哦。

爱孙，
美佩

Put your hand way up high

2008-10-12T01:41:00.004+08:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but i try not cry
As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But It's like you gone too soon
No the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high.

2008-08-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

YEAH YEAH, our symbol of love is done on 9th Aug 08 :D
ilove you baby!

this is the overall picture of my tattoo.
ITS A BULLET! okay, if you cant figure out wads tt.
Baby got herself a gun. Will upload a picture of her gun when she send it to me.
Tattooist, Joel was damn friendly and shy
We got the tattoos at $260 after $20 discount.
Thanks to Cara! :D

Met 2 hilarious foreigners at the tattoo shop. (8 Volts)
Chris and Ryan.
While we were on our way home, we met Chris again at the lobby of orchard plaza. It was damn funny, 'cos he told us that, the lady who's suppose to give him a massage turned out asking him if he want a hand job! Omg. hahaha! He freaked out and walked out of the shop.

A picture of Sam getting inked. laughs, her jubulu jubulu face. hehehe.

I LOVE YOU!

2008-08-08T21:29:00.001+08:00

Tml 's national day!

Fireworks.

do you remember?
sigh.

ew wads this

2008-08-06T02:01:00.000+08:00

Its not moving, its just your eyes

2008-08-06T01:49:00.001+08:00

famine stricken chils being stalked by a vulture

2008-08-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

omg damn scary

2008-08-06T01:41:00.002+08:00

I came upon this article online ...

Don't know origin of this but he must have been in there a while from the look of his hands

Omayra Sanchez (the girl pictured) was 12 years old at the time and lived with her parents, her brother and an uncle. However, prior to the tragedy, her mother had traveled to Bogotá on business.

Omayra could not escape and was trapped under her own home's concrete plaque and debris.When rescue teams tried to help her, they realized that her legs were trapped. The only feasible option was to pull her out by breaking and ripping her legs off.

Omayra remained strong until the last moment of her life. According to people who were by her side during those moments, the little girl wanted to live, saying her only worry was to go back to school.

The people who were trying to save her life begged the pilots of overflying helicopters to get a pump so the water could have been drained out. After two days a pump was delivered, but unfortunately it did not work properly and finally got stuck because of the mud and debris.

http://xmb.stuffucanuse.com/xmb/viewthread.php?tid=2589

Matching tag- too.

2008-08-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

My mum said, "..... TAG- TOO (tattoo)"

SO CUTE. OMGZ

Sam's gonna get a gun, I'm gonna get a bullet :)

TODAY IS TUESDAY!

2008-08-06T00:39:00.003+08:00

Baby's left eye swollen :
Had friendly with NTU canoe polo team todae.
Score for the first match 1 - 0 ; Second 2 - 0
Not bad, got improve in the scores, but have to work harder for IVP which is like in 30th Aug.

GOOD LUCK TO DEVLINS!

Here are some stupid pictures captured by me using my lousy phone at Zouk on Sam's birthday. Scary leh ~

Sam's

Mine

Dennis's

HUHU, i think this photo is damn cute.

To My Dear Sam

2008-08-04T04:17:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Samantha!

Heylo! My baby's finally 19! Spent my entire 3days with her.

And Omg, i love her *

:) She's the best buddy, best partner, best girlfriend, best person to gossip with, best lover, best of the best!

Too bad, she's already mine ;)
hehehe

To Baby: I promise I'll look after you...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONS! YOU'RE 19!

2008-08-04T03:22:00.005+08:00

Hello Dennis!

Hello Christina!

Hello Baby with her 19 Donuts!

She's flying with her donuts!

Di Da Di

Ballz Mama
Hey There Beautiful
A Kiss For the Birthday Girl Look at my girl! How Adorable!
And Whoops, i realised i have uploaded the pictures wrongly

HAPPY SWEET 19th BABY!

After dinner at the Fountain of Wealth where the surprise awaits

Hello my pretty ;

Her Balley Best Friend ;

Her Sticky Best Friend ;

2008-07-29T02:11:00.002+08:00

hello.

I AM VERY BUSY! : (

SORRY ALICE! i read your blog entry. seriously! I will make my day free on the next next week ok. since u're not free next week.

Anyway! Saturday is Celebration for Sam's 19th at Zouk . Alice and Angela please come! :)

2008-06-30T02:35:00.003+08:00

i think.

im just not the right one.
im not someone great.

diverting calls.
ignoring msges.
u think its alright.
but i dont think so.

i've not done sucha things to u.
and you ...

wadever. release me if you
dont love me anymore.

2008-06-30T02:33:00.001+08:00

Maybe im just not the right one for you.

fly high.
bye.

2008-06-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

why do all good things come to an end...

everything was stil perfect just nw.
suddenly my world came falling down.
just like how jill fell down the hill with a pail of water.
wet. sad. pain. hurts.

i dun want it to end like the previous time.
i dun know what you're gonna say to me the next morning.
i dun know whether my presence will bring you any trouble.
i just wanna be with you.

someone teach me how to smoke.
someone teach me how to drink.
someone teach me how to smile.
pls, now.

I DUN WANNA JOIN THAT HUNT...
i just wanna lock myself in my room.

2008-05-28T18:18:00.001+08:00

suddenly i dont feel like joining that hunt thingy.
suddenly i think i look more like a butch.
suddenly i think i am not gd looking.
suddenly lots of thought went thru my mind.
suddenly i feel like #$#@^%^@#$%

i dont wanna join! :(

2008-03-10T21:12:00.004+08:00

"there's one sad truth in life i've found
while journeying east and west,
the only folks we really wound
are those we love the best."

-ella wheeler wilcox.

sry baby, i made you cry again this aftnoon. im really didnt mean it when i said "dont waste my time". : ( i was just trying to show how much i wished i could have you to only myself for the whole day, for once. sry for being a spoilt brat, who whine about this and that.

sry dear.
iloveyou.

2008-03-10T20:47:00.005+08:00

i love her the most : D and of cos, I love them too!

here's my baby's unglam moment :X

my two dearest balley friends. Lol.

I LOVE MY TEAMMATES TOO, i will upload a photo with them real soon!

2008-02-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

wad ever my reason is. it never will be a good one to you girls.

when i make time for you girls. although i know its not so often.
but i really did make an effort, maybe not everytime but sometimes.

i didnt mean to defend myself, but it's really very angry and sad to hear from you girls that im using you when i have no one else to go out with. it's really very very sad.

and yes, its just that at times, our schedule dont allow us to meet up. why blame me for not wanting to meet you guys up, when i wanted to?

when you said you dont wan to talk to me, because you think im always right. because why? i have my reason, and i think you dont get my reason.

you said im always with my gf. becos she's in sch? becos she comes to sch and look fr me? and we have training? and we end around the same time?

i agreed im not that kinda person who plans my timetable well, but I HAD NEVER EVER MADE USE OF MY FRIENDS.

wadever reason i give, i didnt mean to not show up for the gathering.
sometimes i wish my life is just good as you girls. you have time, you have money, you have great parents, you have car, you have money, you have loving siblings.

what do i have?

2008-01-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

i just feel like giving up every thing now.
i feel so upset and in need of someone to talk to.
but who will give a damn about me? why is my life in such a pathetic state?

where's the cara who used to laugh at every thing.
where's the cara who smile so widely every day.

since i am

such a bad daughter
such a bad sister
such a bad girlfriend
such a bad teammate
such a bad friend

i think i can put a full stop to my life.
because, it is hard and painful to live a life like this.
i dont wan a plastic life
i need true friends.

i love my family
my girlfriend
my friends
my teammates

but

who loves me? truly.

2008-01-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

FEVER FEVER

hothot head
hothot eyes
hothot nose

swollen eyes.
what else can i ask for to fall any sicker?

im so sick now :
omg. save me.

2007-12-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

she is tall and i feel so tiny (but protected) when i stand beside her.
she has gt pretty face.
she has gt patience with me.
she has gt cute tiny winny eyes.
she has gt nicely positioned teeth with a very big and charming smile.
she has gt cool hair style with good smooth hair condition.
she has gt long beautiful legs.
she has gt a pair of gentle yet strong hands which never fail to hold me when im falling.
she has gt short nails which look very cute especially when she paint them.
she has gt an adorable tummy with that piercing. (you're nt fat)
she has gt comfortable shoudlers which i wipe my tears on when i cry.
she has got a big sexy butt! xD
she has gt my heart.
she is my precious; samantha wong.

ils.

2007-12-29T20:13:00.000+08:00

take my harsh words back.

they do care.

2007-12-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

lets talk about how much you know about your teammates.
do you ask them "how are you?"

i feel so terribly upset.

MAKING MYSELF CLEAR.
im nt losing focus. i just cant go too physical now.
i DID NOT purposely skip trainings to accompany anybody.
i DID NOT make up that backbone problem to skip trainings.

dont assume anymore. ask me.

ok. im going to see a doctor next week, becos the pain is back again.

2007-12-28T03:14:00.000+08:00

i feel soooo like a sick cat. wtf.

im almost recovered from my back injury.
and my * felt some stupid sharp pain todae. wts.

and happy birthday i missed trng again!
i feel so guilty. sry girls. will use my two hours tml in the pool wisely.

crack my back and throw me into the pool.

2007-12-27T03:03:00.000+08:00

hello. no more emo post :D

heybaby, i'll be there for you. these five words i swear to you.
things will be alright again. i promise i will always be here.
i will never go missing again.
i will love you with all my heart.

i will not let anyone take any advantages of you.
although im nt very big. but i will protect you :)

iloveyou //samwongbaby

2007-12-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

Didn't think that I would feel this pain.

Whatever happened to our innocence.

Help me say the words out loud.

I need to wake up from this state of mind.

The situation is a staying kind...

Would you catch me if I had to fall, would you even find the time without it all.

2007-12-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

《一人一半》
演唱：伍加輝
改編詞:小寒曲:伍加輝

一人一半感情不散
一人一素故感情才會久
時光累計安靜的淚滴
一心去追愛那么可貴

這樣的人這樣地等
無非是等個回應眼神
為愛翻滾不計傷痕
甘心為你一生都浮沉

這樣的人別笑我蠢
傻傻的心痛也不覺疼
就算天冷就算殘忍
等你想起這沒用的人

一人一半感情不散
已經找到愛為何要離開

時光累計安靜的淚滴
一心去追愛那么可貴

一人一半感情不散
已經找到愛為何要離開
已經找到愛為何先離開

PS: 请不要离开。。。

2007-12-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

my life...

broken back.
stupid haircut.
etc...

im sad.
brkfast.home.
i merely wanted to spend more time with you by sending you there.
hw i wish my phone rings right nw. hw i wish you would ring me up and ask," are you home?"

i need the beach now.

2007-12-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

was waiting fr you to call bck.
waited fr almost 2hours.
sudden moody-ness frm sick girlfriend.
insensitive cara, very stupid. very emo. very guilty. very dumb.

crying. nt knowing wad to say other than saying im sorry.
i'll try to make you smile later

reflection: i'll change my insensitive-ness.
sry baby.

2007-11-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

some how i just dont feel the same anymore. we dont go gagaga over things together anymore. we dont even stop to say hi. we dont even talk about our personal lives anymore. we are not as close as before.
you know you can feel it, so can i.

i thought this wouldnt happen to me and you. but, some how nightmares do come true.

These kinda friendship & team thingy have been happening to me, one after another. upset, angry, annoyed, lost. now i think i finally know it feels like. and somehow i got immuned to it. and not trust anyone so easily anymore. i'm too tired to try anymore. but i dont wan to lose my motivation.

huns, this entry is nt about you. nt to wry (: ils.

2007-11-19T10:19:00.002+08:00

WHATS YOUR FKING PROBLEM!?

dont irritate me, you wunt like it.
the sight of you annoyed me.
fuck.

2007-11-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

baby, im terribly sry about what happened tonight.
nevertheless, i realise that i really need you by myside now.
you're just like a part of me.
dont ever leave me.

stay with me. let me love you more. <3

2007-11-05T12:09:00.001+08:00

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK .

2007-10-26T00:31:00.001+08:00

wad the fuck.

2007-10-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

feeling blessed - unbelievable.

thank you baby for the happy days, happy moments that makes me laugh and smile, cheer me up. thank you for being there for me when I'm down. thank you for your kisses and hugs which brightens up my everyday life.

i love you more than anything.
so stay with me. let me love you more.
(:

to my silly -happypill.

2007-09-29T23:34:00.001+08:00

I never thought that I'd love someone

~~That was someone else's dream.~~ my dream.

2007-09-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

ytd was a ______ day. i seriously dont know what word can i fill into the blank.

went town to meet eljae and rudith. both OLD pple are damn funny. ok i love hanging out with them. they're damn fun to be with. can laugh at ANYTHING they see. and is SERIOUSLY ANYTHING. hahaha.

aft that, we accompanied rudith to suntec, then we went to hongkong cafe. we shared our thoughts. and haha. found some similiarities. and we're like couple pls. share a plate of peanut butter bread. faints. eljae you rocks pls. thanks fr being there!

sam was drunk, a lil tipsy, so called me over to her friend's hse. finally got a cab aft like 30mins. walked up and down , in and out of marina sq. faints. she was seriously red when i saw her. HOT ;)

i bottom-ed up two cups. and im like GONE. freak. and i got seriously drank. vomitted like 143412324456 times.

things were good and pretty when i reach there like just, but start to emoemo in betwn in the later part of the night. OMG. u smoked! sigh.
& am i thinking too much? alright, i think i shouldnt be so sensitive.

hmmm. met her friends. made new friends. and i made friend with this super big guy from my course pls. LOL. my BAOC group mate. he's damn tall. KENNETH! laughs.

went to van hse and stayed over night. vomitted again. seriously i hate the feeling i hate the smell. but thank you baby for taking care of me when i was drank :) watched her slp.

suffering frm stomach unwell pls. totally. left knee hurts. feel damn lack behind. didnt go training today :/

and then HOME SWT HOME.

ONLY HOOCH is allowed fr cara :)

2007-09-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

slap me hard right on my face. wake me up.

2007-09-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

caps india was GREAT though the AC's activities didnt turn out like what we expected. but who cares! everybody enjoyed. so did i.

anyway, i miss my gf hell lots during the camp (:
life can nv be that wonderful without you.

thankyou my mightywonder gf . the one whom ilove. always putting a wide smile on my face.

the day at vivo with you was totally Indescribable.
To me, it was a combination of fun, joy, love, excitement. and i got to know more about you! :D
here comes the funniest part where you broke the flask. HOHOHOO. we just looked around to see if anyone saw it and ran down the escalator. wandered around basement area looking fr the hypermarket entrance. faints. haha! and ever since aft the flask is broken, we avoid tt level (area). ohmygod.

went bbq last night ;D i went crazy like usual, me and eljae both go swing swing swing. haha singing breaking free. its damn funny. becos my voice was like. @!$*!#.
and jiun like always, with her camera, she shot everybody's unglam moments.

LAUGH OUT LOUD.

anw, HOOCH tast nicer than bacardi. rah . hohoho.

alice, pardon me fr nt contacting. was away fr camp
the past few days. meet up soon! ;D

2007-09-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

maybe sometimes, just have to think twice.

see clearly. hmmm.

~~am i jealous or wadeva? sigh.~~ ilove her.

2007-09-16T12:48:00.000+08:00

When you're with me, i'm free.
i'm careless, i believe.
above all the others we'll fly.

ytd was a day filled with full of ups & downs.

Thank God, i've my stoney gf <3

2007-09-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

i hurt my leg.
it hurts when i walk.

i think i hurt my friend.
it hurts when i talk about it.

sigh.

2007-09-07T14:38:00.000+08:00

(: someone owes me milo dinosaur.

had teamtalk. was rather effective though. every one voiced out. hope all of us will train harder tgt alright. im sry.

out of emo crisis alr
im smiling now. becos :D

h0ho went velvet dragon last night. faints. the place was erm. crowded. but, i got to see my two darlings! alice & angela. haha. yepp. TIRED. cos i went pengarang fr reckee trip earlier on in the morning ytd. took some pic. will upload them when jane send me the pics.

adam took our "slping pic" while we were on the way back on the boat. it's damn hilarious.
pengarang trip was fun!

-the oreo on eric's mouth
-adam's "hair"
-fanghui's nose
-TOYS!
-jane's "slping video"

I BOUGHT DONKEY CARDS. but didnt noe how to play. dumb me. LOL! eljae bought snap!

2007-09-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

i AINT emo.
JUST keeping quiet ;
becos i think that there's no need for me to talk.

but i really want back the old cara.
sigh.

dont worry. aint emo.

(:

2007-09-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

天崖何处无芳草
tian ya he chu wu fang chao

何必单恋一枝花
he bi dan lian yi zhi hua.

可是我就是喜欢你。

2007-08-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

and again. it happened.

i guess tts it!

:D

i shall smile and live on.
i believe. i'll find someone

2007-08-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh Be my baby Oh, oh,
oh Oh, oh, oh I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby Oh, oh, oh

The Fray - Look after you

2007-08-30T13:06:00.001+08:00

on the way home.

bus.

the songs in my phone keeps playing ;

images of you in mind.

and the phrase -
"it's impossible" .

I WANT TO CLEAR MY NAME!

2007-08-30T12:46:00.001+08:00

omg. dont drag me into a "war" which i didnt participate in...

:/

your prediction is wrong. so wrong. omg.
you stil dont know. try to understand what I asked. why i ask. and why i want to clarify.

2007-08-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

2007-08-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl.
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night.

Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind, We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh, Now my world is at your feet.

I was lost and I was found, But I was alive and now I've drowned.

So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song So they can tell me I was wrong...
But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
Any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
So I couldn't say "no".

You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.
You were there blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say,
I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know,
Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him"
But oh, now, my world is at your feet.

I was lost and I was found, But I was alive and now I've drowned.

So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong...
But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare Of
any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare Of
any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

So I couldn't say "no".

Missy Higgins - They Weren't There

2007-08-29T01:05:00.000+08:00

IM GONNA BREAK DOWN SOON .

WHY IS MY LIFE FILL WITH FULL OF SADNESS?

why are all these happening to me?

wts is these?

SOMEONE PLEASE COME AND SAVE ME.

but that someone i want just wont come; just dont know.

sigh.
- shakes head vigorously.

2007-08-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright here, there's nothing more to say.

So I'm running away.I'm leaving this place.

Yeah, I'm running away.I'm running away.
Don't tell me, I don't want to play.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.

So I'm running away.I'm leaving this place.

Yeah, I'm running away.I'm running away.
And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving.

Yeah I'm leaving today. And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past.
No, I won't look back.

And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.
And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay

I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.
I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.I'm running away.

Midnight Hour - Running Away

2007-08-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

MONOPOLY - (:

gymed
threw ball
went down the pool
didnt bring clothes
i think im sick agn

at the end of the day. IM ANGRY.
why bother talking to me when i make u angry. i didnt even say anything and u just scolded me fucker. wts is this all about?!

IVP.

2007-08-27T12:52:00.001+08:00

OUR SHIRT. im so happy when we got the shrits. we wore it on the first day of ivp. MY MUM SAID THAT THE SHIRT IS SOMEHOW SMALL FR ME. im like ._.

OMG. first day was totally a stressful one.

we reached school at about 7.30am. and started to carry the boats, paddles, speaker, etc.

we took LORRY to the cca place. haha. (forgot wads tt called) anw, the LORRY ride was damn cool. jane and joleneQ was scared. becos it's their first time on a LORRY. haha. CUTE pls!

when we reached there, upon seeing all the pple in those wetsuit. they look so PRO. and we're like noobs can. erh. ;) we still played the games.

during the games. pple cry, pple cheers, pple even say we're noobs ; lousy and stuffs when we're just year1s. but its ok. i believe all the DEVLIN will train harder and become somehow a PRO somedae. YES GIRLS!? ;D

after those matches, we all agreed and felt that we've improved. anw, i have to learn hw to paddle/hand row in a game. shitty. i cap-ed 3times. haha! after the first match i was quite angry with myself though. but its alright. this is the first time. and it helped us grew stronger.

DEVLIN GO! ;)

FIRE FIRE. HELP!

2007-08-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

venue: the carpark ; which is just beside my house as u can see. (blk748A)

date: saturday, 26th Aug 07

time: 4am ++

hmm, tt day i wasnt home, so i didnt really know what happened. my brother told me someone set firec on the motors, causing a tiny explosion.

the person has totally gone outta his mind pls. go around the neighbourhood carparks setting fire. 4carparks within 12mins. crazy.

last night while i was walking home from the bus stop, im like "eh why the carpark so dark". i thought there's a short circuit, so i didnt really care. But as i walked nearer i realise tt there's burnt motors. the walls are black... covered with those black substance caused by the smoke.

find it weird. so i went home to check the sunday newspaper. THERE'S A FIRE. yup.

luckily the mad person didnt burnt blk 748.

thank god

2007-08-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

NIAHAHAHAHA! eventful day.

overall a happyday ; though the paper today shucks. rah.

EARLY IN THE MORNING LATE. took train. even worse. becos after i alighted the train. i took wrong bus. make a detour. wad the shit. ran two bus stop before i board the bus. luckily the bus is fast. if nt i will miss that 10mins reading time. wts.

THE PAPER SHUCKKKKKSSSS. seriously. when i open up tt paper. im like wth is tt. and im only confident in my calculations. i think i seriously got into the wrong course. MUMMY I WAN TO CHANGE COURSE PLS! rah.

i seriously dont feel like doing the paper at the point of time.

today i have bad hair day. i cant believe i spend 30mins in the toiletmaking that stupid hair of mine. i feel like shaving it off. wts. fanghui say i cant find gf becos i spend too much time in the toilet. laughs. maybe i should change tat bad habit of mine.

today. studied in the library. we went bored. went to disturb sheena. had cup noodles. and we drew that spider pig picture. LAUGH OUT LOUDLY.

oh not forgetting. fanghui spitted out her bubble gum accidentally while she's competing with me. (who blow the biggest bubble) HAHAHA! ITS DAMN HILARIOUS! you should see jane's reaction. ahaha. RIGHT JANE!?

sheena was left alone after yuchern left. she's got DISTINCTION fr bmgt. omg. god. can i have distinction in bmgt too. NEVER. haha. had the longest talk with her today :)

i very cold pls. i update again tml. tata. hahaha. lazy to type. minesweeping time ;)

with you i'll always share... when the sun shines we’ll shine together told you I'll be here forever. I'll always be your friend, took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end ...

2007-08-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

NO MORE BMGT + FIREWORKS = HAPPYDAY!

;D omg finally the paper is SOOOO over. wahahaha. went to marina sq to watch the fireworks today. last day ok. was damn happy after watching the sparkles vanishes into the sky.

had some silly imaginary talks in the afternoon with jane and jappo. but tt's really wad i wanted in the future. haha. relaxing life....

wooo...

but money ? nvm. HAHAHA.
cara is happy today.

i suddenly realised that im nt as talkative/ chatty as compared to last time. omg. I WANT BACK THE OLD CARA! wad happened ...

2007-08-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

today's a rainy day. sigh

blaw exam. kinda screwed the last two LAC question. sigh. a total of about 20 marks gone? i really hope to get an A but. nvm. dont wanna talk about it alrdy since it's over.

straight after the exams, met fanghui then jane then jappo and went to CHEERS for lunch. had some unhealthy food (magee). i think my hair are dropping at a rapid rate. shit. im goin botak :/

study at library again. : bmgt. shucks. big time. alot. and i hate it. dying.
too much to memorise pls. a total of 8 chapters wth. why cant the bloody tutor give some hint.
out of the 8 chapts we studied, we are only required to write 4 of it. which is exactly HALF. waste time.

and ya. hmmm... nvm i shouldnt blog about tt. alright, skip to " jappo, jane, fanghui and me went to KAP fr fries..."

jappo was thinking whether to go for the friendly or not to go. she stil went in the end under the company of jane and fanghui. haha. hey guys tell me about the games. rahhh... hope they took down videos.

alright. mood wasnt really good. wasnt really smiling. jane said i act rather weird these few days. i duno. maybe is becos im stress? rah.. dn wana think. bye...

2007-08-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

why cant i just have a lil bit of time to myself.
im on the way to recovery and now something happened again.

FUCK.

shittylife.screwedupme.

show me the way. someone.

2007-08-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

DAMN.

IVP. EXAMS. and plus plus plus.stress. im feeling damn shag these two days. i shall stop all my stupid acts and silly talks. arghh... and continue with my life. no more internal conflicts. no more complications.

i dont feel like letting go. but somehow i've to. RAHH.. this is damn irritating.

DUA BEH GONG PLEASE BO BI ME IN MY EXAMS ; gd grades for cara pls.

I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their
blanket
But I've gotta move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

2007-08-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

died.

exams are coming. friends. time. training. Rd. omg. SO MANY THINGS yet to be done. sigh. how i wish i can just. pause everything fr just 3weeks. let me conc on my studies. argh.

woke up early in the morning like 7am to acc my mum fr brkfast. omg im damn shag. i slept at 2am last night pls :o aft brkfast then went to meet jane and fanghui in schoool. studied a lil bit of blaw. gym-ed.

training todae. omg. i made mistakes agn. @$!#% bloodyhell pls. damn angry with myself. argh. anw. i seriously think that the training time is NOT ENOUGH.

had dinner at IKEA with momo, jane, ruixiang, benson, fanghui, corinne and eljae.

went to queensway shopping mall to look fr trng bag. jane and i bought the "MIZUNO" bag. OMG . that was damn hilarious. all of you should ask jane what happened. hohoho.

GRACIA momo was kinda upset. so jane and i acc her to vivo fr games of bishi bashi. but bloodyhell. e-zone(vivo) doesnt have bishibashi. damn lousy pls the arcade #%$^%.
anyhow, we played the time crisis agn. the most funniest, tiring, enjoyable game was the "fighting game" (wadeva it's called, i duno) LOL. gracia controlled the game stick, while i pressed the buttons. we won like one comp player can. omg. LOL!

we lighted the fire sparkles, candles, and made wishes. and imagine. the whole grass patch, so big, yet only a small portion of it is lighted with candles. LOL. it looks like the greentea cake from breadtalk pls. rah .

GRACIA SMILE PLS! we're here fr you.
we're the MOMO ; JOJO.
handsign & (HAHAHAHA)

if you didnt notice. its all about you

2007-07-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

boo, hello pple. these days are "trng days" really very tired but feel kinda healthy though. (: i lost like 3 kg pls. when i should be gaining muscles. wth. so im going to drink milk and soyamilk everyday. rah. finally completed my projs. and exams are coming. will be kinda busy the next few weeks. so. pple! i will contact u guys aft my exams. really very stressed up over here. so yup! (: im sorry if i neglected u guys. but really have no mood to enjoy. !$@#$#@#%&*%

you're so attractive. sometimes i dont noe wad to say. im so scare that we will run out of topic. anw, it always happen. & pls stop chasing me away. i will go, if you want me to.

:D someone's being dumb.

2007-07-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

haha! HELLO. it's been AGES since i last blogged an entry. oh my, im sorry. was busy with all my projects and assignments. headache.

my mum is gg away fr two weeks starting from next tuesday. omg. MUM IM GONNA MISS YOU! :D

im sry my friends, if i've somehow neglected you due to my work. argh. how i wish there's no such thing as exams. IM VERY TRULY SORRY. i'll meet you pple up as soon as my exmas are over. alright!? haha. i promised!

recently, i've gt a comment from someone, who hates me. hmmm. thanks fr being so honest. appreciated. will change fr better. hwever, i think u should change too. maybe u would like to go over to tel the person in wad way he/she should change and not directly hate the person. hmm. if you really hate me. den i guess i cant do anything about it. no matter wad i sae doesnt make any diff. if u hate me so much, hate my presence so much. den why view my blog? aiyoh...

:D nvm about tt previous paragraph, i shall talk about wad i did ytd. FINALLY i went to trim my hair, but somehow it doesnt look like i trimmed my hair.hahaha. i went to winne's auntie house at about 7.45am. that was damn early. and aft trimming my hair i went to school for the planning of activities fr CAPS INDIA. haha. but didnt do much. becose most of the members are nt there.

anyhow, SHUNLI AND I LOVE THE "A WHAT" game. it's a VERY SUPER irritating game though. haha!! (shunli: you noe wad i mean. *sinister laughter)

after the ppt discussion, we went fr trng. I LOVE TRNG.
( i have yet go for my gym orientation. opps.)

its's DINNER TIME. me fang hui sheena shunli eljae linnette fiona went to KAP fr dinner. fiona left early. followed by shunli and linnette.

WE PLAYED : tai tee - cheat( omg i cant play tis game ) - black jack - HEART ATTACK)
we stayed in MCDONALD all the way to 8pm. haha! tt was damn long. sheena's dad gave me a ride to pending station. THANKS SHEENA! :D

dajie was damn funny. i finally saw the other side of her! hahaha!

photos taken in my house last thurs

2007-06-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

MY FLEXIBLE LIPS! whee.
wad a fishy look.
JU ON!

(: my angels!

my face "CHOU JIN" HAHAHA.

TWIST!

showing OFF out teeth :D
omg my rabbit teeth.
we're .... erm... performing ?
what's up! (:
act cute only. HAHA

look at ALICE. HAHAHA!
NOW. look at ME! (ugly)

ALICE is fading! omg .

ok. this was one of our random pose. LOL

urm. cara's jealous of them? :D

YMCA on the way back from Haji lane

2007-06-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

the 4 waiting lanes

Thats my car ;D

PLUCK

2007-06-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

a day in town

2007-06-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

OMG INFA. paper was quite easy (: its the easier paper among the three tt i took. hmmm. EXAMS ARE OVER OVER. hahaha! happy! erm... after the paper i went to the library with giam, clio and mag. me and mag ate cup noodles. i drank bubble tea, mag doesnt want the bubble tea because she somehow think that the bubble tea was "not clean", which i think was quite true too. haha! (you'll sometimes get stomach upset after drinkin tt)

they went off fr lunch and i sat in the library alone fr like two straight hours waiting fr jo. haha! she came. we went to rent some vcds."Poltergrist" while we were watchin the movie, that damn player keep stopping, we thought that the disc spoilt. so we rented another movie "the others".
the player keep stopping too. so we decided to watch it on jo's laptop at the cafe. the show was fabulous. at first i thought it was boring. but. who knows! ahahah.

JO's stil kinda confused. JO!!! smile! (:

FRIDAY

i went to town today. I WAS LATE. i met naddy, mans. and mans' friend. haha! mans was so quiet ... erm. aft that yiting and amadea came topshop to look fr me... and then maria. we head off to heeren fr WANTON MEE! (: hahaha. im so bloody hell hungry back then. haha. urm. after that we went back to wisma topman. i was hoping tht i could get sth. but i didnt. LOL. i end up buying a shirt at Haji Lane. LOL! the shirt was simple and nice. (: OH! we took damn LOTS of picture at Haji Lane. haha. shall upload it when amadea send them to me! hahaha. THE DAY WAS SO EXCITING! omg. (: the clique is nw named as YMCA. LOL! the "lai yuan" of this name was very random. HAHA. i love you girls! thank you. dont worry too much about me. i'll get myself out of "emoemo" soon ok. (:

I LOVE YMCA as well as ACA !

cara's stil a lil upset but i hope i'll be fine soon.

seasons are changing waves are crashing

2007-06-07T11:57:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY

i slept at 4am yesterday. i woke up at around 12 and started mugging (the whole afternoon). i felt as if my brain is going to explode soon.argh. stupid BLAW. Oh, anw i went to my uncle's wedding dinner in the evening. OMG. i got to see all my beoved cousins. haha! and the highlight of that night ; this auntie told my mum she tot i was a boy ._. (they was communicating using HOKKIEN, she thought i didnt understand hokkien). omg. i was just standing beside, talking to my uncle; i pretended as if i dont understand. SO PAISEH. the dinner was alright luh, but i think the previous dinner i went was better (:

after dinner, we took taxi home and I STARTED STUDYING AGAIN.

WEDNESDAY

AT LAST, FINALLY. BLAW IS OVER. omg. im like so HAPPY. after blaw paper, i went for my INFA extra lesson. with giam, loy and neh. we went to have our lunch at canteen one after the INFA lesson. the noodles sucks todae. erps. HAHA. aft lunch, me, giam and jo went to the library. we decided to watch a dvd while wating for shunli to come. Jo was hungry, so giam went to buy her cup noodles (smuggle into the AVroom). when that ah peh librarian came over to the area where we were sitting, we were like OMG. (because of the cup noodle). THE FORK DROPPED accidentally, because that ah peh librarian was like staring at us. and we had to get another fork from the cafe. erps. WE WATCHED MEMOIRS OF GEISHA. i love that show (: giam went off early...

she msged me at around 4plus (she just got up)

but the show was damn long. we finished watching the show at like around 4.35pm. we went to cafe to have cup noodles again because we were very hungry. hahaha. after that we started studying again...

the night was boring. JO was sad. but i hope that shes's feeling better now

I left my last unknown

2007-06-04T22:42:00.001+08:00

i had my first paper today (macro). the test was ok except for some of the true/false question which confused me. i went to the NP lib with Tania for our lunch. guess wad we had? - CUP NOODLES! our fav. after that, i came back to woodlands and waited for her at the bus interchange, berth 13. she reached at around 5.03pm. she came to my house. we watched dead alive. it's a very gross and retro movie btw. hmmm. she left my house at around 9.25pm.

thank you MANS, JO, SHUNLI, XIAN KAI for cheering me up these few days. greatly appreciated.

This is how i feel right now.

2007-06-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

you left my house.

you dont want me to send you off
you forced me to make a U-turn and go home

i tried to say no. but in the end i stil went home as you told me to.

you said you need time.

i hold back my tears. i didnt cry.

i dont wana tel you hw i feel
i am afraid that i'll hurt you again.

i am confused.

i think god can explain

2007-06-04T21:59:00.000+08:00

There's a lot of things I understand &
there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes
The sent of vasoline in the summertime
The feel of an icecube Melting overtime
The world seems bigger Than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry
I believe I'm the same I get carried away
It's alright I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed

But I'm afraid that I cant get over it yet.